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Dear Pops,

Hi. I know it’s been a while. And, more than anything, I want to say that though You never left, I miss You terribly. I miss talking to You late at night. I miss waking up in the morning excited for what You have in store.

Right now, all I have is fear. About everything. I’m afraid. I’m anxious all the time. Needless to say, I hate it here. I hate being in this position.

I know You can do it if You wanted to… please re-ignite the fire in my heart. Make me so desperate for You. Make me feel that I need You more than I need the air I breathe (only because its true).

I wanna be able to sing ‘THIS GIRL IS ON FAYAAAAAH’ again and know that between You and me, it has a whole different meaning. I want to tell people about how great You are with that conviction I had before.

This is a really unorganized bit of whatever but You know me. You know what’s in my heart. And I trust You. You make everything work together for the good of those who love You. I still believe that.

                                                                                      lovelove,
                                                                                              BBEAR